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えいりん☆
23 April 2011 @ 04:30 pm
So I just tried tracing back my Livejournal posts to the very first one I ever wrote, and now I'm left feeling... I don't even know.

It's interesting to watch my posts transition from being childish, to very childish, to slowing, to ceasing, and now finally reviving again.

It's not that I haven't been blogging - I have a personal Blogger account that I update with more personal things - but I guess I lost interest in posting trivial things for a silent audience. It's hard to record your thoughts in a public journal, because there needs to be a perpetual filter for what you write. People inevitably judge you, and what you choose to reveal about yourself through your writing will lead them to see you as a certain type of person.

Sorry if I'm being vague and cryptic here.

Anyway, another thing I realized after skimming over my old posts is that I miss all my old LJ friends.

Ikku, Mariko, Shii, Meiko, Luca, Pinku, even people whose names I can't even remember anymore, and I feel terrible for it.

People probably don't read this journal anymore, and I don't blame them for it - there's nothing to read if there aren't any updates. That sounds obvious, but it's the truth.

If I had the chance to reconnect with the people I used to talk to all the time, if I had the chance to tell them all the things that have happened in the past two years of my absence...

It'd be really hard, right? Aha.

It'd be like starting from square one: two people who've met in a previous life, meeting again for the first time. They're both completely different people, and the memories and experiences that they shared in their previous lives don't really help further their new friendship.

So if I were to start talking to any of the people who used to care about this journal

who used to comment and laugh along and encourage me

It'd be like meeting for the first time.

And then how long would that last? It'd be impossible for anyone to say, I guess.

But despite the initial awkwardness that we'd encounter,

despite the realization that we've both changed completely,

I'd still take a chance and start anew with any one of you.

... I'm just rambling here. LOL.
 
 
感じてる: complacentcomplacent
 
 
えいりん☆
23 April 2011 @ 01:08 pm
 
やっと遊園地に行ってきた!!ヾ(@°▽°@)ノ





めッちゃ楽しかったね!Brianくんと一緒に~




左→バカな顔
右→Brianくん




チケットです~



ジェットコースター本当に乗りたくなかったけど

やっぱ乗ったw




すごいゎ!!乗る前にマジでビビッた(汗)




でも




毎日怖い事を一つしてみて良い




と思って




さっそく勇ましくなっちゃたよ(・ω・)/






最後はね



一番気に入り


観覧車
 
 
感じてる: hyperhyper
 
 
えいりん☆
19 April 2011 @ 02:52 pm
 


時間がどれだけあってもちゃんと勉強できないわ(つД`;)



どうして?
 


誰か勉強方法教えてくれぇぇえええーーー!!!!
 


 
 
感じてる: frustratedfrustrated
 
 
えいりん☆
18 April 2011 @ 08:11 pm
 

今日ちょっと休みたかったからMylesくんに会った☆



やっとFinal Fantasy XIIIとかKatamari Forever遊んでみて嬉しかったなぁー:*:・( ̄∀ ̄)・:*:



ゲームしたし



もちろんポラロイドを撮ったねw



そして




私、なんか病気になりそう・・・





だから母さん新た薬をあげてくれた




これ



洋風薬だからまだ慣れない




苦いわ(/TДT)/
 
 
感じてる: lethargiclethargic
 
 
えいりん☆
17 April 2011 @ 03:35 pm
 

さっきMylesくんトイカメラ買ってくれたんだよ(*^▽^*)



SuperHeadzというブランドのUWSトイカメラいいねぇー

CAMERA USAGIカラフルが選んでさっそく買ったよw


操作は完全アナログだし


めッちゃコンパクトな形だからいいカメラっす~


手に入れる時まで楽しんでるよ(^ε^)♪


 
 
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